Alive

After heartache 

My heart yearns for fickle butterflies 

While the uncertainties of love consume me

You are always on my mind, amusing me

In the blink of eye, 

I'd break my heart for you

You are mystery, that unravels the unknown

Consuming me in gallores 

For it isn't love that gives me joy

It is knowing that you're being loved that fills me with pride 

While you sleep in your velvet dreams 

Even glancing away from your face would be magical moment lost perpetually 

I'd rather be with you 

Than take another breath 

Sit by your side 

Sing for you; massage your feet with the warmth that you fill my soul with

Losing you would be suicide 

A thought: I love to push aside 

So be with me, God

While I salvage for my magical being 

I only want to give you all of what I am 

Even if that means losing myself 

Love is dangerous, so is life 

But It kills me, to not imagine you as my wife

-Aditi Shetty 

Hurdle

Black
pain all over
screaming
tears on my face
sunset: a lost memory
help: a deprived necessity
white lights, blue coats
unattended with dry throats
woke up like a crying baby
our fathers and hail mary
A gloomy room
With a 'Get well soon' balloon
A familiar face
Pure grace
Home no sweet home
Missing mom to the bones
Fights, tantrums, cold shoulders
Smoke steaming out my ears
Incapable to fend
My sweet summer's dead end

-Aditi Shetty.

G o n e

Your transparent veins
On my brains
Can't forget your perfume
Your eyes, with sunshine, bloom
You've gone and I'm still here
Why did we not, disappear?
I'm helplessly alone
Stuck in a dark whole
Waiting in deluded hope
But distance abstains me to cope
How do I kill the stabbing pain?
When I lost my universe, my core, my main
You were my first, my temporary muse
Love is but, always abused

-Aditi Shetty

Drugged

Broken heart,
It lays on the floor
walked on it with your dirty feet
It turned to ash
Flew in the wind of melancholy
Tell me how to love
Tell me how to not feel so much
Tell me, that you love me
Even if it's a lie
Cuz I have no heart
To feel the pain
I have no tears to spend
My heart is dead
My soul is lost
Don't know, who I am
My breath stabs me in the back
Atleast now, there's nothing to lose
I can start over
Every stranger's entitlement
To break my heart again

-Aditi Shetty

Delirium

Don't mind the people that don't matter
For those who matter, don't mind
And those who mind, don't matter
Mind over matter, you see
Too much matter make your mind mind?
Or minding make your matter matter?
Choose or lose,
Abstain the snooze,
Do you peruse,
My sly ruse?

-Aditi Shetty.

Cheesy-pleezy

You won't connect with her heart
Beacuse you don't see how it endures
Through the shattered pieces of her soul
That has been broken by those who see her as ordinary
The scars that you see on her face,
they scare you
and you push aside,
Her gentle, cold palm that touches your face
How will you fall in love?
In love with her mind
When all you see
Are the bruises on her skin
That mighty heart is waiting,
For you, just, for you
Close your eyes
And feel her soul intertwine into yours
Take her hand
Don't let go
And let her know
That the universe looks small in front of her heart
Tell her to feel your heart
when her breadth touches your eyelashes
Like sunshine to the trees
Like cold breeze on a warm summer
She isn't something you want
She's something you need,
Like oxygen, or hope
worth living for
Tell her your heart stops
When her eyes meet yours
Because in that moment
You become one
Until eternity. 

-Aditi Shetty

Lost

How do I find myself?
When I don't know where to look

How do I feel the world?
When I burn from within, losing sensation

How do I love another ?
When my heart is robbed by the steadfast

What do I see?
When my eyes are delusioned by pretence

How do I, live then?
When my heart stops beating with every breath I take.

-Aditi Shetty