Sadlifehappylife

 Warm drops drip 

Thoughts running this trip 

All day and night 

My one true rite  

I’m alone in this space 

With a mind of a maze

Don’t know start to end

It’s all in a bend 

Squeezed in between 

I’ve forgotten to dream 

And I’m lying on the floor 

Starting at a knob on the door 

I’m stuck

Legs held in this muck 

And I’m falling through

No hands to hold on to 

It’s all black, and space is spare 

If only to live I’d dare 

Would I see the light 

With all my might 

And pull myself up

Out of this self-fuck-up,

We call a life 

Full of strife 

With a few happy days 

While the stars hold my gaze 

And the moon shines away 

Until the sun brings a brand new, fucked up day 

(This one is for giving space to all the negative thoughts just as much we aspire to hold positive ones) 

Dark Challenger

 I got about $20 in my pocket 

We’re bound to think: fuck it 

God I know, in this very moment 

I want to see you, and not be distant 

I’m walking and I stop at the lights,

And wish you were with me, hugging me tight

So I could patiently look into your eyes

While you look into mine 

Now I remember I’m just dreaming 

Or maybe I’m manifesting us singing 

everything doesn’t seem to be much of a bother

your soft palm in my hand, I imagine us like no other

Now I know, that you and I, we understand

That life is too short, and unplanned 

We’re young and way too smart 

To not know that, we’re nothing but art 

There is no secret key, 

It’s just you and me

Melting into each other’s souls 

And onto those calm, quiet strolls 

exist-errain

 Sick of life

Don’t know what this is

Feels like fire on a knife

Feels like some slow long dizz

Geez how’d I get here

God why do I care

When all is mere

And all is snare
Fuck this shit

I’ll say what I’ll say

You’ll hear what you’ll hear

Because blood isn’t thick

And the stars don’t stick

While the moon falls down

On this evil heaven we call earth

I'll be here and ponder

how being alive is a wonder

Journey

This broken heart lays on the floor

 did I love too less, or more?

These aches,  they don't go away

Tears rolling down, "help me God" I pray

How did this happen to my heart

This breakup, was a mess of art

I feel nothing but lost 

Was the effort worth the cost?

Our last kiss is a stolen memory 

While intimate moments become history 

"Let's be friends" she said 

I thought,  "I'd rather be, dead"

But que séra séra, such is, indeed 

while to life, I pay heed

The sun decides to shine everyday 

And so will I, someday, one day, 

...but not today

Today is just not the day

Tomorrow though 

In my soul, will I know 

That I never needed anyone

And be glad that we're done

-Aditi Shetty.

One-way ladder

Cold sweats 

Deep breaths 

Shivers run down my spine 

Fears exposed and entwine 

I tell myself, "one day at a time"

Survival earned by the hourly dime

Friends and strangers seem alike

Futile Instagram trends on spike

What's the point anyway?

It's all forgotten by the end of the day 

While souls hunting for purpose in bars

Attempting to alcoholize the void of their scars

The unacceptable doom of humanity

we are what we need, there is no path to sanity

Yes, you fool, we are all mad 

What else can we be, in a world so profusely sad?

Spontaneity

If fishes flew and birds swam 

and humans were dead, instead of being rammed

While the full moon serves a spotlight 

For all of humanity's plight 

will we give a damn

when a calf is pulled from her mothers pram

will we wince away when 

innocent lives are snatched from comforting dens 

Just take a moment, take a moment to think

about what we do just to eat flesh and drink their milk

why? why are we so apathetic 

We fail so miserably in our ethics

So fuck it all 

Break the rules 

Slam your cars 

Until we're all just dead and numb

and animals can have the earth to themselves, and not succumb

-Aditi Shetty.

Ambivalence +

 High spirited trips on finger tips 

eloquence drooling on fragile lips

the velvet blood within our veins

stitch the dark mask amongst our reigns

self-destructiveness, no one sees

hearts and mind, we numbingly seize 

negligible efforts and common minds 

lack of humour, and absconding true kinds

humanity is a doom 

progresses abstain from bloom

so come and go, as you may

life is nothing, and our spirits sway

survival be manually constructed,

we fear potential, and breathe- self-obstructed

break through the shackles of consciousness 

the ancestors await spirits' iridescence. 

-Aditi Shetty